free like a bird

hell yaaa!
in this section, i'm going to share something that attacks my life now. hmm actually a week ago because from now on i'm going to become such a strong girl with a lil' tears. lol.

okay, let's start with what's going on with me..
hmm i've separated with my bf. okaaay this isn't the first time, i know. but this is the first time I separate with a better way.
it's hard to say but, we're really be a friend now (hope so). we have a couple of persian cat, we have to grow them even we've separated. the reason why we are separated is a secret (not a secret really cause we both have told it to some of our friends).

yes, i've cried for the first day, hmm the second day also. okaay, i've cried for almost a week. i'm such a weak girl (was). but tears make me feel better. there isn't anything wrong with tears.

he was a good boy, but not really romantic. he kinda gentle one, not always. but it's enough for me. the problem is not on him actually, not all on him but also on me. we've spent our time together, we've wrote many good memories and i haven't forget it yet (i'll never forget it because memories shouldn't be deleted).

i try harder each day to make this feeling like it has to be. well it's hard because i'm still worrying him every second. but i'll try to make it less and less day by day. everything needs a process rite?

i've spent my tears too much, then it's the right time for me to spent my smile much then my tears. life must go on. i still have a lot of things to do in order to reach my dream. i still have many plans that haven't be real. it's for the best, we know it.

sometimes i feel that it's not fair to him but.. you know that sometimes a relationship has to be end by several more important things that i couldn't mention it one by one.

so, i just try to stand up taller, tease my tears, think bravely, act better, and be a good girl that i should be. i don't wannna be weak too long.

i'm single, unattached, free like a bird, but i'm depend on my family, so do them, i have friends that i can talk to, i am a college student, i have many assignments and exams to do, i wanna take a violin course, i still have my couple persian cat, i have my saturday night with my family, i own my life but i share it, and now im happy, feel better, yeah, good, really :)

you know that, single doesn't mean you are alone a whole day, all time, no one to share. it just a call of someone who is free like a bird, do everything that (s)he wants, live like (s)he wants, that's all. don't be affraid of being loneliness because there are more than million people in this world that you could share with.

free like a bird, fly wherever you want, dream whatever you want, reach it, like a bird which has a purpose in every flies that it takes.

GOOD LUCK A SINGLE! COME ON, STAND UP TALLER, THERE ARE MANY PEOPLE WAIT FOR YOU! :)