F !

GOD DAMN!
I JUST DREAMT ABOUT HIM
AND IT WASN'T REALLY A GOOD DREAM

it was many years ago.
when i like my senior and he didn't know it
until someday,
(well i didn't know who actually told him)
we shared our phone number
and the story just began..

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i prefer to not telling it completely,
cause it really hurts me instead (sounds like adele's song. lol)
in fact, it ended with the worst thing ever.

okay..
and when i dreamt about him last night
just wondering where he will be
whether he's good or not
and if he still with his girlfriend,
or not?

many years ago,
he asked me if our distance between us will be a hard thing or not
but when i asked him back, he just said "never mind, forget it" (in Bahasa : ga jadi deh)
at that time i just wanna kick his head and pull out his brain! (okay it's too much)

aaarggh, you know it's hard to delete those?
i've been with several guys and they aren't better than you
(just escape the bad memories)
they not treated me as well as yours

don't you remember, (if you read this, F. just hoping *sigh)
so many messages that we've shared,
so many cute things that you've gave
and i just lost you
or you lost me
or we both lost
or you don't lost me? cause you've got someone else
(even she's not better than me? hah?)

actually, if i didn't dream about you last night, i would not thinking about you like this, like today, all day long. (if you want to know, if)

i hope your yahoo messenger will online when i'm online
i hope you chat me with the very simple way as always ("hai")
i hope we'll meet again like in that concert when Glenn Fredly sang a very good song.
(even i was smiling there, my heart was stop beating, his smell was so amazing, and i couldn't handle it, really i couldn't)